Start all over again

whenever i think of the past, i feel silly and stupid...
It's not worth for me to feel sad or looking pathetic becos of u.
U dun giv a damn about me anyway and y should i ?
I was too naive and stupid tat u'll change.
The funny thing is tat i'm neither angry nor frustrated, i feel u're pathetic and pity of u coz nobody could actually change u.
Somehow i really wish u can change, for tat i'll be happy for u and watever u did to me in the past... i dun wanna care anymore...

still missing...

All this while i thought i'm able to forget this relationship... until i knew there's sth between you and her then only i realised i was wrong. When I knew ur relationship with her, i felt sad and almost burst into tears. This time, my heart is aching... I realised i stil couldn't forget our relationship. I'm stil missing you... very much...

a message...

My eyes are dried up, left no more tears,
As i am now in deeply grieved,
For my heart is bleeding as if been stabbed infinite times,
The feeling, the pain, which very little people could understand,
Nobody knows how long i can stand the pain,
Cause it's too painful to be borne,
Time is the only cure i need for now,
It's time for me to start a new life..

Lovely couples everywhere i see,
Each of them reminds me of you,
Somethg's not right between you and me,
I guess we are not meant to be together;

Our lovestory has became history,
The memories which i really cherish,
You are indeed a motivation to me,
You've taught me a lot which i could never forget,
It's better for me to forget the memories we had,
In order to erase the wound deep inside my heart...

(amanda copyright)