Start all over again

whenever i think of the past, i feel silly and stupid...
It's not worth for me to feel sad or looking pathetic becos of u.
U dun giv a damn about me anyway and y should i ?
I was too naive and stupid tat u'll change.
The funny thing is tat i'm neither angry nor frustrated, i feel u're pathetic and pity of u coz nobody could actually change u.
Somehow i really wish u can change, for tat i'll be happy for u and watever u did to me in the past... i dun wanna care anymore...

still missing...

All this while i thought i'm able to forget this relationship... until i knew there's sth between you and her then only i realised i was wrong. When I knew ur relationship with her, i felt sad and almost burst into tears. This time, my heart is aching... I realised i stil couldn't forget our relationship. I'm stil missing you... very much...

a message...

My eyes are dried up, left no more tears,
As i am now in deeply grieved,
For my heart is bleeding as if been stabbed infinite times,
The feeling, the pain, which very little people could understand,
Nobody knows how long i can stand the pain,
Cause it's too painful to be borne,
Time is the only cure i need for now,
It's time for me to start a new life..

Lovely couples everywhere i see,
Each of them reminds me of you,
Somethg's not right between you and me,
I guess we are not meant to be together;

Our lovestory has became history,
The memories which i really cherish,
You are indeed a motivation to me,
You've taught me a lot which i could never forget,
It's better for me to forget the memories we had,
In order to erase the wound deep inside my heart...

(amanda copyright)

WushuNight

it was a successful night, successful performance ^^
it's quite tiring too as i left the sch at about 12.30am
it's kinda heart-broken that we had to destroy the backgrounds and all preparations that we made at the end after all our hard work...
this is the reality of life where we work so hard just for that short unforgettable, precious moment...
yeayy! i think our relationship is closer than before although there's not much communication btw us!
well... at least we talked to each other more often compared to last time...
i felt sooo happy ^^
even though i know it's "impossible"... for us but our friendship is more than enough to me
to me, u're always the best !
^~^

Unexpectations...

shouldn't b tat way...
no... not 2day...
it shouldn't b tat way !
it shouldn't b like tis...
seeing u upset but can't help anythg...
... makes me feel very bad...
really wish there's sumting i can do 2 make u feel better
i'm sorry... i'm really sorry...

The Outgoing

yesterday i went for a movie with a few friends
we wasted quite a long time to decide where we wanna go
but fortunately we have decided where to go
so... a close friend of mine took me and another friend to the nearby lrt station
the rest of them just went straight to the other station
... and they only told us once we reached the lrt station
ok =_= . . . that was so... uhh !
man ! should have told us earlier ! ><
don't ever take taxi at kl sentral ! damn expensive !!! CRAZY !
my money... T~T
shit !
fine... just take it as an experience...
I've bought new shoes and it's quite expensive for me
=_= haih... i'm actually forced to buy it...
then we went for a movie
honestly the movie sucks
later on we went to play machine games!
sadly i couldn't play coz not enough money...
damn it ! should bring more cash! then i could play car racing ! ><
hope she can come with us in our nxt outting...

complicated

should i trust u ?
although wat u did hav ady became a past
i'm stil hesitating whether should trust u or not...
even when u said u've changed...
i dun really believe in u...
should i believe each n every word u said 2 me ?
should i believe in u ?
... til now... tis remains a question mark in me...